I know full well how sneaky, conniving and unpredictable addiction can be. So I know I must always be on my toes. I can never let myself become complacent. A craving can come completely out of the blue or be attached to my emotions, but it can also be brought on by change. Changes to … Continue reading I Will Not Be Caged By My Recovery →

As I’m sure most of you are aware, today is world mental health day. It’s brilliant how much everyone is talking about this cause. Its all-over social media and television - more so than I can ever remember in the past. I know what it’s like for your own head to be your worst enemy. … Continue reading World Mental Health Day – Talking Does Save Lives! →

Why me? This is the question an alcoholic or addict will always ask themselves but never get a definitive answer. Well, at least I used to ask myself this all the time. Why can’t I drink like a normal person? Why can’t I take and leave alcohol like my mates? What Is wrong with me? … Continue reading Why Me? The Addicts Question With No Answer…… →

This very day three years ago I vowed to never drink again. A vow I had made countless times before and had broken. But this time something was different. For the first time in recovery, I was able to accept all the things that I would normally use as excuses to drink. I accepted that … Continue reading 3 Years Sober Today!!! 3 Years that have saved my life….. →

It can be so easy to try and rush your recovery from alcohol addiction. It’s a mistake I made many times. I just wanted to be ‘normal’ again as quickly as possible. I wanted to click my fingers, never drink again and forget about my alcoholic past completely! Unfortunately, it doesn’t work like that. My … Continue reading Recovery is a Journey not a Destination →

Its not uncommon to hear someone say, ‘I’m always the last one standing at a party’. For me, during my late teens, the party would just be the start of an almost sleepless bender. I wish I could have realised back then that I was showing all the signs of an addict. I never wanted … Continue reading Nothing Is Ever Enough! →

Last Friday I had some unbelievable news. News that I would never have dreamed could be possible just a few years ago. News that, if I’m honest, still hasn’t sunk in properly. I had an ultrasound on my liver and for the first time in years my liver was NOT fatty and not particularly oversized. … Continue reading A Big ‘Result’ for my Recovery! →

I literally couldn’t tell you how many times I relapsed on my journey to sobriety. Time and time again I would be given another chance to stay sober after a detox or rehab. And time and time again I would eventually reach for that bottle. Sometimes I would hold out for just a couple of … Continue reading Relapsing – Don’t make the mistakes I did! →

At around 7am four years ago almost to this day, I came to a stark realisation of just how ill I had become. I had just consumed a good two litres of what is supposed to be strong cider, but more like battery acid. This had calmed my morning withdrawals and allowed me to dress … Continue reading Don’t Lose Hope! →

For years my life revolved around drinking and during those dark times I DID in fact have a routine. However, it was a routine which consisted of just two things. Drinking and getting hold of more drink. It was a truly awful way too live, but at that point I could not see a way … Continue reading My Recovery Routine and Me →