‘It’s 5:30am on a Wednesday morning as I wake. I have an indescribable feeling of sickness in my stomach and my hands and legs tremble as I struggle to raise myself to a seated position. You can’t see the bloodshot in my eyes as the whites are now a dark yellow. The withdrawals are already … Continue reading A little bit of my story
I know full well how sneaky, conniving and unpredictable addiction can be. So I know I must always be on my toes. I can never let myself become complacent. A craving can come completely out of the blue or be attached to my emotions, but it can also be brought on by change. Changes to … Continue reading I Will Not Be Caged By My Recovery
As I’m sure most of you are aware, today is world mental health day. It’s brilliant how much everyone is talking about this cause. Its all-over social media and television - more so than I can ever remember in the past. I know what it’s like for your own head to be your worst enemy. … Continue reading World Mental Health Day – Talking Does Save Lives!
Why me? This is the question an alcoholic or addict will always ask themselves but never get a definitive answer. Well, at least I used to ask myself this all the time. Why can’t I drink like a normal person? Why can’t I take and leave alcohol like my mates? What Is wrong with me? … Continue reading Why Me? The Addicts Question With No Answer……
This very day three years ago I vowed to never drink again. A vow I had made countless times before and had broken. But this time something was different. For the first time in recovery, I was able to accept all the things that I would normally use as excuses to drink. I accepted that … Continue reading 3 Years Sober Today!!! 3 Years that have saved my life…..
It can be so easy to try and rush your recovery from alcohol addiction. It’s a mistake I made many times. I just wanted to be ‘normal’ again as quickly as possible. I wanted to click my fingers, never drink again and forget about my alcoholic past completely! Unfortunately, it doesn’t work like that. My … Continue reading Recovery is a Journey not a Destination
Its not uncommon to hear someone say, ‘I’m always the last one standing at a party’. For me, during my late teens, the party would just be the start of an almost sleepless bender. I wish I could have realised back then that I was showing all the signs of an addict. I never wanted … Continue reading Nothing Is Ever Enough!
Last Friday I had some unbelievable news. News that I would never have dreamed could be possible just a few years ago. News that, if I’m honest, still hasn’t sunk in properly. I had an ultrasound on my liver and for the first time in years my liver was NOT fatty and not particularly oversized. … Continue reading A Big ‘Result’ for my Recovery!