‘It’s 5:30am on a Wednesday morning as I wake. I have an indescribable feeling of sickness in my stomach and my hands and legs tremble as I struggle to raise myself to a seated position. You can’t see the bloodshot in my eyes as the whites are now a dark yellow. The withdrawals are already … Continue reading A little bit of my story
As most of you will know, we are just coming to the end of Mental Health Awareness Week. Now more than ever we need to be supporting one another. Covid-19 has had an extraordinary impact on all of our lives, both physically and mentally. If you are struggling with your mental health, whatever you do, … Continue reading Covid-19, mental health and the power of talking
Alcohol sales are through the roof. Everyone's social calendars have gone out the window. And people are anxious, fed up and searching for answers. I can't help but wondering if the expression "oh what the hell, it's lock down" is echoing down streets all over the country. Alcohol can disguise itself as your best friend in … Continue reading Lockdown – It doesn’t have to be the birth of a million alcoholics
This is not a post I thought I would ever write. First of all, I hope anyone reading this is safe and well, and anyone who's ill - I wish you a speedy recovery. We are at war, but instead of soldiers putting their lives on the line, it's the amazing people who work for … Continue reading Addicts in Isolation
Failure. It’s a scary word for anyone. No one wants to be associated with it or experience it. For an addict, it’s not only scary but it’s also incredibly dangerous. It’s one massive excuse to reach for the bottle. And I have been SO guilty of doing exactly that, countless times in the past. It … Continue reading Failure or just a new chapter – Definitely the latter!
Some people are scared of heights. Some people are scared of flying. Some people are even scared of the dark. An alcoholic like me can also be scared of any of these things. But none of them are even slightly comparable to the absolute fear I have of ever going through alcohol withdrawals again. Most … Continue reading My precious nightmare
Today marks a year since I started writing this blog - and what a year it has been! So this blog post isn't like my usual kind of blog post. This is a post about the people that had an enormous say in me surviving alcoholism. The people who never gave up on me, even … Continue reading Addiction And Your Family – Your Pain Is My Pain
So, we are heading towards that time of year again. The time of year that almost everyone looks forward to. Where we celebrate with family and friends. Work parties are in full swing. And every other advert on TV is cheap booze on sale. Yes, It’s almost Christmas! My drinking ruined many Christmases for my … Continue reading Christmas in Recovery
I know full well how sneaky, conniving and unpredictable addiction can be. So I know I must always be on my toes. I can never let myself become complacent. A craving can come completely out of the blue or be attached to my emotions, but it can also be brought on by change. Changes to … Continue reading I Will Not Be Caged By My Recovery
As I’m sure most of you are aware, today is world mental health day. It’s brilliant how much everyone is talking about this cause. Its all-over social media and television - more so than I can ever remember in the past. I know what it’s like for your own head to be your worst enemy. … Continue reading World Mental Health Day – Talking Does Save Lives!
Why me? This is the question an alcoholic or addict will always ask themselves but never get a definitive answer. Well, at least I used to ask myself this all the time. Why can’t I drink like a normal person? Why can’t I take and leave alcohol like my mates? What Is wrong with me? … Continue reading Why Me? The Addicts Question With No Answer……