‘It’s 5:30am on a Wednesday morning as I wake. I have an indescribable feeling of sickness in my stomach and my hands and legs tremble as I struggle to raise myself to a seated position. You can’t see the bloodshot in my eyes as the whites are now a dark yellow. The withdrawals are already … Continue reading A little bit of my story
Last Friday I had some unbelievable news. News that I would never have dreamed could be possible just a few years ago. News that, if I’m honest, still hasn’t sunk in properly. I had an ultrasound on my liver and for the first time in years my liver was NOT fatty and not particularly oversized. … Continue reading A Big ‘Result’ for my Recovery!
I literally couldn’t tell you how many times I relapsed on my journey to sobriety. Time and time again I would be given another chance to stay sober after a detox or rehab. And time and time again I would eventually reach for that bottle. Sometimes I would hold out for just a couple of … Continue reading Relapsing – Don’t make the mistakes I did!
At around 7am four years ago almost to this day, I came to a stark realisation of just how ill I had become. I had just consumed a good two litres of what is supposed to be strong cider, but more like battery acid. This had calmed my morning withdrawals and allowed me to dress … Continue reading Don’t Lose Hope!
For years my life revolved around drinking and during those dark times I DID in fact have a routine. However, it was a routine which consisted of just two things. Drinking and getting hold of more drink. It was a truly awful way too live but at that point I could not see a way … Continue reading My Recovery Routine and Me
If you have read my previous blog posts, you will have seenhow often I mention how important talking to other people about my addiction toalcohol has been towards my recovery. There is a reason why I have beenrepeating myself. Talking about my addiction was undoubtedly one of the biggest steps I took towards sobriety. Until … Continue reading Addiction…..Talk about it!
Having a good routine has become one of my strongest and most powerful tools in recovery. And a major player in that routine is exercise. I benefit from exercising in so many different ways that I actually consider it a form of self-therapy. It all began with running whilst I was in rehab. It allowed … Continue reading Running to recovery
Earlier this week for about 8 seconds I thought I had done the unthinkable. For 8 seconds I genuinely thought I had fallen off the wagon! But I hadn’t. Let me explain…. It may be two and a half years since I had my last drink, but I’m still reminded of what its like to … Continue reading Drunkmares
These days I feel like I have a reasonably good grip on my emotions. This has not always been the case in my two and a half years of recovery. For years the alcohol I was constantly consuming was blocking me feeling many of the emotions a normal person would do. Emotions such as guilt, … Continue reading Alcohol – The emotion blocker
I have learnt a lot on the road to sobriety, many of these things I have learnt the hard way. One being that if you are heavily dependent on alcohol and have been drinking hard for a long period of time, it is very dangerous to just stop! Going cold turkey can lead to severe … Continue reading Death by withdrawal
Its been five and a half years since my first three month stay in rehab. At the time, I was 23 and the youngest resident. As you can probably imagine, it was a strange environment to walk into. There were residents in rehab from all different walks of life, such as army vets, a pub … Continue reading Rehab and ‘the seed’